Wednesday, November 23, 2005

~:P O R T F O L I O * C E N T E R:~
Since I have already e-mailed the entire planet the link to the article Portfolio Center has posted about Bjorn and myself, this story will not be news to you. Just in case, I'll talk more about it here.

I have been teaching at PC for a little under 10 years. Hard to believe how fast time goes. It wasn't until this year that I was able to teach on a more full-time basis. I spend the first part of my week there at the school (Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays), and balance that with freelance at my home office for the next 4 days of the week. It is a perfect balance of work and play. I can hardly believe I get paid to do this - basically to be myself. My 2 lives at home and at school are seamless now - and I feel no one or thing pulling me too tightly. I am free to be myself 100% in both places. It is a very nourishing place, indeed.

When working for someone else, I hated the feeling that that place HAD me for most of the week, leaving the rest of my weekends and week nights as recovery time from the damage done at work. Not a great place to be. One should not have to "recover" from their manner of making a living. Working like that felt more like enslavement after a while. I was just a person who needed to have more control and freedom. Basically, I needed something to call my own.

The decision to go out on my own was not an easy one. It took me a long time to muster up the courage to do so. Not only courage, but a belief that I deserved to be happy in the first place. Or that I would even succeed. It's amazing how fear can keep you from happiness. I am so incredibly grateful for the souls along the way who guided me through this shift. Everything that has happened, happened for a reason and it's all for good. This soulful alignment of logic and passion has brought me to this new place. I am still asking people to pinch me.

Pinch me?

1 comment:

maryk said...

Great article/interview! Congrats! It was different and creative, of course, and a lot more fun to read than the other featured interview---sorry to that person if she is reading this. She sounded a little too much of a ballbuster for me. boot camp in p. park early morn? A-no-thank-ya.