Tuesday, February 09, 2010

Safe

Here's a work in progress for my show in March. (Taken with my iPhone:amazing little toy!) The self as inherently full of life and therefore safe. This is the first lighter underpainting I've worked over. I kinda like it. I used to paint the torso with a huge carved out of the core - my therapist noticed that and we've been working together on rebuilding Anne and reinserting her core. I think it's working.

Monday, February 08, 2010

The Atlanta Progressive Preschool


After a long and patient search for a better school for Anton, Doug and I believe we've found the right one. Check that. We KNOW we have.

Anton was previously going to The Kingswood School here in our neighborhood. It was recommended by a neighbor and was conveniently located 2 miles from home. Never having been a parent before, I didn't do much searching into researching schools back when he was only 2. I assumed because I was a Christian (at least I thought I still was) that he'd be safer and warmer in a church school and I liked the daily trip to the chapel as part of his routine there - liked the idea that he'd be exposed to spirituality.

Well, now that I'm not a Christian anymore, my notion of spirituality has drastically changed. And since I've been in therapy with Debra, an Emotional Intuitive, we've done lots of digging into my past, through my body, to unearth all kinds of notions I had about life that no longer serve me. In fact, they've started really hurting me. One of those, was my tie to the church. NO, it's not a bad place at all. Just my idea and deep knowing about God is so much larger than one religion can picture and preach. So I left last summer and began healing some pretty deep self-inflicted wounds in the process. Yes - I aim to take full responsibility for my life and choices. Everything that hurts was initiated by me at some point. And NO, I'm not there yet fully. Just on my way and trying to trust the process.

So. Back to Anton. He did just fine as a 2.5 year-old at Kingswood. By the mid-year parent/teacher conference, though - he got very low scores on their checklist of what they think toddlers should be able to do and our teacher (her first year as a teacher/no degree whatsoever) suggested he be tested. This left a really bad taste in our mouths. Anton acted just like all the other kids his age did and he was happy. So we shrugged their assessment of him, especially since before the end of that year - he was doing all the things on their list they said he couldn't. I remember his teacher telling me "we're no experts." And I wondered at why they'd give an expert opinion if they in fact weren't.

The very same thing happened this year. We had a first time teacher assess Anton with her list and suggest he be tested and asked if I was concerned. I said no, that I had trust in Anton's timing of things. She said he reminded her of her son and that both of her sons had Aspbergers (high-functioning autism.) I asked her then if she was suggesting Anton had Aspbergers. "Oh, no. I'd never attempt to diagnose a child." And with that statement, she gave herself away.

I was then struck with the memory of a conversation I had with the director of Kingswood. She told me how much progress Anton had made and reminded me of the fact that I'd first walked into the school carrying him. (And she thought this was bad. He was two. TWO.) She told me that because Anton was not yet verbal, he was controlling us and his world with grunts and sighs with the correct inflection, but that this was somehow a bad thing.

Guess what. Anton talks now. Just fine. And I know lots of boys who have delayed speech, etc and just get there at their own sweet pace.

There is a shimmering hum of panic and judgement at that school. At every turn, I was told Anton was a sweet boy, but not smart enough or fast enough. He never measured up. At least not at their dictated pace.

And I thought to myself, "Why am I sending my son into a learning environment that is mostly worried about measuring up?" He's being assessed. All the time. And not just Anton, but Doug and I as parents.

In comes my chance encounter with the Atlanta Progressive Preschool. Well, not by chance, really. But by God, I really believe. I walked into the Director's office and nearly cried. I told her my story about Kingswood and she assured me that she and many other parents had been down my path. Anton just wasn't in the right school. And no one was happy.

I, in particular, was smothered by this sense of doom that I wasn't giving Anton enough at Kingswood. I was sending him to a school that looked, felt and preached just like the ones I went to in the 70's. By now their approach is archaic. Nothing about them was new. Nothing was different, nothing revolutionary. No real story or process about this pace caught my eye or intrigued me or tugged at my heart. I was bored. So was Anton.

There are so many different schools out there with different histories, different agendas, different beliefs, different philosophies. Not every school is right for every kid or every family. And the process of finding the right one can be really scary. It was for me.

At the Atlanta Progressive Preschool, Anton's experience has been profoundly happy with just two visits and one full day as a student there on Friday. He sings a clean up song now and woke up this morning, listing all the fun things he did at the school after his first full day.

I spent an hour at a seminar Friday morning about an introductory lesson on the Reggio Emilia Approach, which the school has now officially adopted. Its history is as fascinating as watching the process occur today. Listening to the stories of teachers, parents and directors, I had to keep from crying - it resonated so strongly with me. This is the parenting/educational approach to Anton's young life that I have been looking for.

One of many reasons why the APP has earned its name as "progressive" is that while other schools MOLD, DICTATE TO and CORRECT children as they learn. They very directly teach kids information to memorize. The APP teachers watch with wonder as the kids learn and they support each child's individual approach to an activity, find a way in and act as a guide and facilitator, not as a dictator. None of them say to the kids, "Watch and learn. This is how it's done. Do it my way." Which is what most of us grew up with. These APP teachers, (who I'm beginning to think really are angels) watch and learn the kids themselves, and then construct projects of learning that the entire class can take part in. If the kids are all about dinosaurs, then the teachers facilitate a very thorough exploration of that subject of infinite lessons, realizations, philosophies, etc. Check out the mind map at the top of this article. It's one of the many in the older three class. And they explore all of these avenues!!

Here's a powerful statement from the Reggio Emilia site:
The Reggio Emilia approach to education is committed to the creation of a learning environment that will enhance and facilitate children's construction of his or her own powers of thinking through the combination of all the expressive, communicative and cognitive languages.

It's magical because guess what - that kind of freedom to say, "I'll learn about life through my own unique interests and what makes me tick. That's what turns me on and what turns me on, I'll get good at and that'll be my gift to myself and my community" is how we adults, the most successful and happy ones, live our own lives. And poof, before you know it, I'm a person with a lifetime of knowledge and experience and love that all started with the fertilization of my unique seed of wonder.

After Anton's first full day of school, his teacher remarked in wonder and enjoyment to me how cool it was that he was more interested in the wheels and construction of the Sensory Table (lots of sparkly rocks and pebbles and beads inside this deep table) than in the contents of the table. She thought he was mechanical. And she loved this.

So, OH MY GOODNESS, he's in the right place. He is SEEN. He is noticed. He is appreciated and supported for what makes him tick. He's not measured. And the atmosphere in all the classrooms is so magical. It is peaceful and exciting at every turn. Even the 3 year olds are baking muffins and cookies, they plant gardens, they compost, the recycle, they spend time in the "studio." Anton calls this the "Art School" which really makes me cry. Talk about full circle! And parents are required to provide 15 hours of service for the school in whichever gift you'd want to share most. They want you involved and believe we add to their diversity. Their approach is so different. And I need these teachers as parenting models as much as Anton needs support learning.

I feel like a different parent. I really do. I see more opportunities now to really lengthen Anton's perceptions - to find out who he really is - to aid him in his discoveries. To celebrate his assumptions, not to correct them when he's wrong. When you correct, you halt the flow of discovery - the chance for him to find his own way. You promote the cycle of negativity that our culture is so reluctant to let go of.

So wow. There is a reason for everything. And this new adventure I'm on as a parent JUST became infinite fun. Anton won't be the only one with an enlarged and ever-budding sense of wonder. His mom will, too.

PS: At Kingswood, they used to take Anton's hat off after I'd dropped him off. And he's a hat person. We have an every growing collection of his hats that hang on hooks in the foyer. He picks one before going out each morning and reaches for one if his head is without one. And guess what. Anton still had his hat on when I picked him up at APP. No one ever made him take it off. :) Rock ON, little man. You're an amazing boy at an amazing school.

Thursday, February 04, 2010

Calligraphic names



Here's a couple's names I did in contemporary copperplate - a la Anne Elser (tee hee) a few months back. I think I forgot to post it then I was so busy! This is Sarah and Jack - a lovely couple and terrific to work with.

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

New Monogram


Here is a recent monogram I did for a soon-to-be-married couple, using their future last name and present first initials. The coule had three loose pencil sketches from which to choose. The final is then inked up and scanned and cleaned up in Photoshop. Monograms are such fun to do and I could tinker with them forever. Only tricky thing to do is to maintain the liquid and vibrant feeling in the sketch, while crossing over to the digital world in producing the final. Which is seen below.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Just Around The Corner



My new virtual home is just about ready for launch and I'm real, real excited. Kevin has been working his you know what off making it and it's been a real blast of evolution, creativity and joyous partnership. Wheeee!

Friday, January 29, 2010

Listener


Here she is, my new painting called Listener. A portrait of Debra and the chair in which she sits. This kind of physical give and take, where you walk into a room with light coming in through the windows, each taking a seat near the other, is a kind of transformative experience in and of itself.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

My Boys

Monday, January 25, 2010

My Energy

Here's the newest painting in the series to be shown at the Kai Lin Art gallery in Midtown this coming March.

I used to give my energy away in all the wrong places, leaving me depleted and stuck behind myself, unable to move forward. Now it's a different story. I'm reclaiming my energy cell by living cell and putting it to better life-giving use. This painting is proof of that.

Hello happy world. I love you.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Tiny Beaded Bag


This little guy is from a series of tiny knitted bags I made a few years ago. Using a Bead Spinner, I took the spool of crochet cotton and strung it with tiny beads. Then you knit a few stitches without beads, then pull a few over and knit again, etc. A really fun way to knit. Makes a beautiful edging or fun accents that add weight and dimension to your piece.

This bag is about 2 inches square and hangs at about 18 inches tall. Wear it as a necklace and it's beautiful.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

new portrait


Hi Friends,

Here's another self portrait I did with the Production class at Portfolio Center. So much fun! The idea for this assignment came from Instructables.com and I use it every quarter. We will be finishing these up next week, so I just might do another.

Instructions can be found here.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Nate Williams


My friend Kevin sent this site my way - the work of Nate Williams is really engaging and fun. It takes a lot of bravery to illustrate the statement "Life Is Beautiful" amongst all the pessimism out there. I love this guy's patterns. SUCH such fun.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Total Rockstar

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Dancing with Dad


Dancing with my father has got to be one of the most fun things ever. It seems every wedding or celebration we attend mutually, someone snaps a picture of the two of us swinging away. People must like the way we do it- heck - I'm not even sure we're that good. But it doesn't matter - he always makes me laugh and I just hold on tight for dear life.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

New Haircut


Doug and Anton are in Augusta this weekend and while I relish the time alone, it's still an adjustment and sometimes kinda freaky. But I have gotten a TON of work done last night and today. Tomorrow I paint and I think the next one is going to be about energy. That is MY energy and the fact that I've reclaimed it. Today has been evidence of that. I've been giving calligraphy estimates out the wazoo lately (Spring wedding season) and it's been great to really participate in that without reservation about how much time I've got. I just keep saying yes to the work, and the timing always seems to work out. I may have to juggle jobs and shift things around - but the work always gets done.

Speaking of time well spent, (and you know I've got extra because I'm actually WRITING to you) I cut my hair today and DANG, do I feel better. Good thing God gave me a decently shaped head and that some genius invented product (I'm a product whore) because I think it looks pretty good! With those two things, a mirror and a little spare time, I'm an okay hairstylist.

Was going to see the Lovely Bones tonight, but really just want to cook a warm dinner, sit by the fire, watch a documentary and knit a little.

Life's pretty beautiful right now. Even while missing the bunny and missing my bunnie's daddy.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Tina and Me


This is a picture of me and my friend Tina at her daughter's wedding. She gave me this one for xmas and I just love looking at it. She's one of my biggest cheerleaders and is also Anton's godmother.

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Listener


Third in the series, Listener began today. This is a portrait of my biggest listener - the throne she sits in when we do our digging and unearthing of the real Anne.

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Quill Skill

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

I'm Bad


Reeeeeeel bad. In my mom's sunglasses and tyroleon hat.

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Ask



Here's a new one in the series showing at the Kai Lin Gallery in March.
This one's called "ask." The openings called "Grace."

Monday, January 04, 2010

Kirk the Godfadder

Here's Anton's Uncle Kirk and Godfather. Kirk is Doug's brother who spent New Year's Eve with us and watched Anton while we got the rare opportunity to go out for a movie. Thank you Kirk! We saw Avatar and had a great time.

Happy New Year!